The King of Hearts

At the risk of biting off more than I may be able to chew, because the subject of this entry touches on things very theological and I am but a simple girl, I'm going to write a little more about singleness. Recently, I came face to face with some questions about guy/girl relationships that I thought I'd already had the answers to, but through a series of events it suddenly became imperative that the things I'd always believed be either reaffirmed or else that I know the truth about any errors I might have in my thinking on these subjects. The biggest question and the one I'm going to deal with here and now is one that I'm sure many Christian singles can relate to. Namely, is it possible for me to wait on God's will and order my relationships according to His guidance only to have the OTHER person (Mr. Right, in my case) make a wrong choice and end up with somebody else (not me), leaving me doomed to lifelong loneliness?

This is one of those hard questions of life that I think many of us are afraid to tackle. I know, because I asked others about it to get their thoughts on the matter. Most of the answers I got from people were either simple "I don't knows" or something like, "There are some things that you just have to leave in the hands of God and trust Him when He doesn't give you the answer." These were what I call "safe" answers. But, I was at a place in my life where I felt I needed more than these safe and ambiguous answers. I needed to know the truth, whether it left me comforted or whether it left me feeling a little vulnerable and scared. So...I asked God. Admittedly, I was not without my qualms as I put this question to Him. I wasn't sure if I was going to get an answer, because I knew He might just be asking me to trust Him in this area. But, on the other hand, if I DID get an answer, I wasn't entirely sure I would like it. However, at this point, just knowing seemed more important.

It was a few days that I struggled with this one, praying and reading the Bible, etc. Then, I went to our weekly women's Bible study. The lady leading it was talking about something unrelated to my question, but she quoted a verse that stuck out to me and somehow I knew it was for me. What she quoted was from Psalms 37:5, "Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him and He will do it." It started to fall into place then. I felt like God was saying, "Jaymie, you've committed your way to Me in the area of relationships, so you can trust in Me and I WILL DO IT."

Here I finally began to get a little peace for my restless soul. But it didn't stop there. I was reminded of yet another verse (Proverbs 21:1): "The king's heart is like channels of water in the hand of the Lord; He turns it wherever He wishes." Again, I felt like God was saying, "Jaymie, My choice for you WILL choose you. You do not have to worry about that."

So there it was. An answer...and WHAT an answer! My God is the King of hearts and somehow His sovereignty and my future husband's freewill will work together so that my future in this regard is not an uncertain one. God will work in the man's heart that He has chosen for me in such a way that that man will choose me. Wonders never cease!